Friday, November 11, 2011

time in need...



salam,


have you ever heard of the saying 'a friend in need is a friend indeed'? i have. a lot of times before, but somehow now i feel maybe i would like to change the idiom... maybe to something like this...


" a mom in need is a mom indeed, so goes for dad...'


i know it sounds lame but i can't help but wishing for it to be so. nowadays we're always faced with the most difficult problems but none is willing to end a helping hand... even parents... parents know best, yeah like that's ever true now... whenever i have a problem somehow i feel like they're not even there for me... they don't even spare a glance to even take notice of the weird changes of my behavior. i would pretty much appreciate it if they did but the reality was much crueler then it sounds. it even reach the part where you would find yourself choosing between life and death. suicide.


I'm not thinking of killing myself but this is what i feel like whenever my parents are not there to support me through the rough times, and i wished they did.


i really wish you were there whenever i reach out for you...

Tuesday, November 01, 2011

His story

salams,

I thought I have missed something in life. The on that I’ve been searching for but couldn’t seem to grab hold of for 16 years. At first, I thought that maybe I was unlucky or maybe I didn’t search hard enough, but later today I found or more yet remembered that that one special thing can only be found in one certain special place and I forgot that… well, only for 16 years.

It’s true when a person said that this world is made up of different people. They were telling no lie. Of course everyone knows what is the obvious but I’m not pointing at the obvious. This may seem a little childish but more the less it’s true. In this world there exist homo sapiens that have absolutely the same characteristics as the other though a few might be a little disabled but never the less they are the same. These beings also carry different hearts, though they generally are a lump of cells and tissues but they are the personalities of these beings.

In theory maybe that is what we’ve all learnt and from there comes a saying that an action or a choice made determines the future that one would encounter, the present is the result of one’s past but what about the past? Maybe the past is your mistake? The past is only history?

One must forget the past and move on with his life. Yes, indeed that is true but only one statement in this that the others forgot to transmit is to forget the painful past and learn from it while remember the glory and aim for it. In my previous search that is what I note. Many are aware of this but none are to actually take in consideration of this whether they are in their conscious or not.

This maybe impossible to understand but yeah, it is life…