salams...
yeah don't espect me to tell about raya... i'm done.
i didn't think this year's raye could be awfully boring... it breaks my heart... haha..well i'm just gonna bable a little about fate...
just bare with me key?:)
on a very bad day i couldn't fall asleep. i was tired yes but couldn't shut my eyes. sigh. i had never experieced a very bad day that lead me to have amnesia. hmm...
i couldn't sleep... what do it do now...? hah! i know! i'll surf the internet duh.
so i did so... hehe,... i opened my fav site AFF huhu... if you know what that is then you my friend are my pal... haha just joking...
i read a story about you... there were pictures of you with another person... bisexual?! no hehe wrong story.. they gotte stop writting these kinds of stories... sigh... i read as the aurther described you ... sigh... hey he/she even inserted a short vid!
opening youtube i watched half the video bacause that's where you come in... hehe... not a pervert...
watching and reading i spent the whole night just reading and watching you and only you... i remembered tha days that i spet shaking my head trying to forget about you, constantly writting wierd quots on every piece of paper in hand... alice syndrom... what a laugh...
"i spend my days only thinking about you."
"i caught myself smiling alone when i realized that i was thinking of you..,"
i would write... these odd THINGS and crumpling the papers keeping it safe in my pocket... sigh... but knowing your condision you could never know me... we're just too far away... you've never met me and it would take a miracal for that to happen... you have others by your side but i always wished it was me who stayed...
in the end i gave up just a little telling myself that things just sometimes are impossible... sigh... i love to sigh... sigh. but tonight i found my world revolving around you... it's wierd.
then i slept really late... after dawn. hmm... i dreamt of... YOU!
what?! i never dreamt of you... never. but how it this possible?! things do tend to get crazy.
the next day i couldn't get anything done. i couldn't focus. hi just thought of you. uh. tire + bad day (again).
sigh. then i opened your twitter acount only to find that you had changed your profile image to something familiar... oh! it's tha same image i used for my AFF profile! dejavu..."0.0"
fate can be cruel sometimes. fate can be very twisted too. hehe... and sometimes even play a faul game... but despite the hurtful and painful experience, i always find myself laughing at it... no offence...
but that's what i went through... fate IS a miracal... and it gets you when you lest espect it... hehe... don't you think?
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