Inspirations...

This is one of the many songs that inspire me to still play piano.. and of course other things in life..

The singer may not be popular but in my opinion this is one of the most touching songs that could clearly been seen written from her heart :)

Hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Peace and out.

Friendship

Now normally I would be starting my lame speeches with weird questions... so...

Like the title as you can see above, it's pronounced friendship ( I don't know if it'll make any difference since I'm not actually saying it :D). The question would be, do you know what friendship really is? Like REALLY know it?

Sure everyone has their own definition of a friendship and I as a humble person, a servant to be more exact am not against them just to be clear. But the real question that I wanted to post was, WHY are we even friends in the first place? What was the REASON of our friendship? Normally if we were kids we would find the first person that catches our eyes and say something like "Hi" or if you're more blunt with your actions you would just say "Would you be my BEST friend?"

That's quite typical for kids, children but we're way beyond that era now I presume. Teenagers aren't any straight forward and immature beings as we have developed a few skills of our own so there has to be at least some reason why we became friends with the person we're with now.

Most people (don't be offended ) when asked why did you become friends? They have completely no answer what so ever. Either that or they would say they don't know why they were friends in the first place and say stuff like do I NEED a reason to be friends? Well for a moment there I thought that that would be a cool thing to say and that just might be one of the nicest things to say but sadly, life doesn't work that way.

Everyone has their reasons why they pick a certain person to be their friends weather you believe it or not. It might be that this person listens to you better or it might be that that person can keep a secret better, or it might just be because of the money and all the cool stuff they own. But for all these reasons, a person has concluded that once they ( the so called friends ) are not up to your expectations, you just end up throwing them away because they don't listen anymore, because they don't know how to keep secrets anymore, because now they're poor. Or in other words they're completely useless to you. Only then will you start saying things like "What kind of friend are you?" or maybe "Some friend you are."

So why are we friends any way?

Well, just a little tip in life sometimes the best friend you have might not be the friend you think you would have. That's why your childhood friend ends up becoming your arch enemy.

True friends don't let you be a half-cooked egg.

Literally...

They wont just let you do things that you might regret in the after life...

In fact, they would go through the hard times and the happy times with you and remember you when you're not there by their side.

And true friends ADVICE you to not do the bad things you're about to do and not leave you behind in every bad occasions. They don't judge you, they HELP you to be a better person you are then before, though sometimes you don't shine, they MAKE you shine just as much at the least. A friend in need is a friend indeed,  they didn't make that quote for fun.

So just think about it... are you a true friend? Because you know what turns around comes around.

So...

peace and out! :)

Car~ Car~ D:

Hola~ today was a wonderful day. Haha, not saying this because of anything particular but I finally got to get my hands behind wheels. :D Wooooo~ I drove and it was the most awesome sensation ever!

haaa~ that was amazing. I just have no way of expressing this in words.. ufufufuuuu~

At first the teacher asked me to just drive normally and do a U turn...

Opps! hehehe.. wrong windo..

this U turn :D

 and I totally freaked out. I was like WHAT?!!

Okay... wrong picture...

Ooookaaaayy~ maybe.. not this one either but you understand what I mean :)
 but the teacher was very understanding so he guided me along the way... and it felt much much much much much much much more easier than I would have ever guessed.

It was like...

yeah.. that easy..

so everything went so well and I was very happy gahaahahahahaha ;D
so last but not least...

peace and out :D

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I know it's not much but never say never until you try.

It's just how its suppose to be

After reading a friend's blog, it somehow got me thinking-well not of the particular subject- but about us. Us as human beings. It's really just something amazing to think that if you fall hard- not literally- a person could still get back up on one's feet and strives for a better life.

We as human laugh when we're happy or satisfied, we cry when we're sad or maybe sometimes angry and get our ears burned when we're extremely embarrassed. These things happen with our own actions and our own will. We caused them, now I'm not trying to rub it in that we should always hold ourselves liable for the pains or broken hearted events that had happened but just think about it, if none of this happened then what will?

It had hit me pretty hard that this life is somehow like a novelist's role in creating a hit novel. You know how novelist tend to change their novel plot line as they have these add hock ideas coming out of the blue, rummaging their brains to further manipulate their stories. At first they have no main role of any particular event in the plot itself but as the novelist goes further, these add hock ideas somehow completes the puzzles and forms the absolute mind blowing peak.

How do I say this is like life?

Well, its pretty simple. We always do add hock things in life, like for instance, you suddenly fart in front of the whole class and they all laugh hard at you. You don't really mean to do so but you did anyways, then the next few weeks you end up participating in the world's longest fart competition and won first place! How good is that?!

Okay, I admit maybe farting isn't the best option for a more realistic example.

Umm, lets take Gundam Seed Destiny for a more realistic example (what?! I still think it's realistic plus it has the word destiny in it ). The main character, Kira Yamato was some random -hot- geek guy that befriended a -weird- blue haired guy named Athrun Zala. You ADD HOCKly -is that even a word?- find a friend from nowhere and in addition one that you never knew existed, then become best friends for life.

 Well in this story, Athrun who is actually Kira's best friend ends up being Kira's best enemy and the tomboyish girl who he randomly (p/s totally add hock) meets, Cagalli ends up being his twin sister. Now if you happen to be a Gundam Seed fan, I'm not saying all these characters are add hock ideas from the mangaka but they firstly appear that way, you get what I mean? Moving on to life... the people we meet suddenly in life are the most common add hock actions we make every single day and mostly in life the people who we never expect plays the most supporting role in our lives and mean a lot more to us then we might think at first. So, we'll end up changing our novel life every singe time we breathe.

Don't think to become perfect just try your best and try hard. Don't sweat it in other words because when you finally publish your book, it's bond to be a hit.

Ask me

I've always asked myself "am I a hypocrite?"

I've always told myself to lie about me. When I'm sad I say I'm not, when I'm angry I say I;m not and tell them to forget about it. There are a few people who could distinguish this though not many, but that never stopped me to strive for perfection. Every time I know I've shown my true self I try harder to hide it. Its hard to have a friend this way right? so I imitate. That worked.

It's not that I don't want them to know, it's just... I don't want them to have pity on me, I don't want them to sympathise me. I've loved the feeling of loneliness until I've felt that this part of life is for eternity. That's why I've come to love my friends and family more then I love myself. Since I lie about myself, I don't show it so they don't know. Now, I don't know how to show it and I'll remain in this life of mystery alone as always. I wonder if that's why people usually believes in my lies than my truth?

please let it be a nightmare

It's me. Again.

I don't really know how to start this. I have no clue what so ever happened today. It was like I was in a bad dream, a dreadful nightmare and somehow this nightmare keeps on going on and on as if trying to tell me that it had no end to it, that it shouldn't end. It doesn't make any sense.

I think I should be put in a mental hospital or something. Sigh.

I woke up this morning after being slaved to do such harsh household work-I slept after dawn. Yes, like Cinderella but the catch was that I don't have a prince and I don't really believe that I will just so you know. Then suddenly, when I finally get to see my beloved brothers, mother and father curved a smile on their faces I thought, I actually thought that I had done something right in my pitiful life. I tried to be there for everyone as much as I can, I really did. Gosh I sound like a hypocrite. My mother and father mean a lot to me yet I've seem to be no use to them. They tell me that every day anyways. I don't want to brag about this one life of mine, though I know no one would care to listen. I know. I'm still adapting to this lonely for eternity thing.

But then after what I thought was happiness something just came out of the blue. Something I never expected. I don't know what was it about. But a dear friend of mine gave me this message telling me that she had waited until 1 o'clock. I don't really know what she was talking about, but I have a really bad feeling about this. I wonder if that was the reason for Miss A's apologies. She kept on saying she was sorry but never told me why. I won't kill myself. I have a family to keep an eye on, but even if someone does come and kill me for being accused of an unacceptable action then...

I guess knowing me... I'll always think that it was all MY FAULT, so I guess I'll just end up taking that blame and be punished for what I didn't do. Don't worry, justice never befriended me so I just found a way to get used to things. Only God knows what I feel.

And it remains a mystery to the people around me of the truth that lies in these painful memories.

And if my friend happens to read this... I'm sorry for what ever happened but if it makes you feel better I've always told you that you could always hate me any time I'd be fine with that because everyone else does and until now I'm still fine with that.

And don't worry I don't share my secret to anyone. That was why I don't really have a friend that stays by my side every time I thought I had found one.

Sorry for this sad post but I got no where else to go.